emoboy will always be emoboy....

Looks like I didn't named my blog wrongly...

"emoboy's stories..."

Don't get me wrong...

It doesn't mean I'm emo-ing now...

Even if I am, I'm gonna keep it to myself coz I'd said b4 I won't emo in front of ppl again..

Juz that I post something in my FB status n someone told me that he/she felt that I'm always emo...

He/She can felt it even if I smile...

Haha!that's why I said...

emoboy will always be emoboy!^^

Actually sometimes I felt happy too...

Maybe the time I felt happy doesn't last long...

It will somehow end really quickly!LOL!

confession of emoboy...

Christmas is over...

Let's begin with my Christmas eve...

It starts kinda badly...

Have to go to Sc Fac to pic up my stuff for fieldtrip but raining...

So I wet back to block D to take my umbrella...

Found out that my stuff in my desk are all gone!!!Damn...

They throw it all away...

So I search for it and took the whole bag of 'rubbish' which belon

gs to my room...and lock it in my room...Stupid 4th Pihak Pengurusan!Yes I said it! You ca

n throw me out of 4th if u want! F*#$ U!!!

Then I went to Sc Fac...

A Damn car drive so quickly that it splash all the water all over me!F*#$ U too!!!

Went back and took a bath and go back to Block D to check if any

thing's left out...

Found some stuff belong to D211...Took it all back n put it back in their room...

Ah Soon came back and suggested to do steambot...

went to Tropicana mall to buy some stuff...

Yeah! that's our Christmas eve dinner!

And something did happen...

At least my Christmas eve gone better at the end of the day...

but my Christmas is kinda boring...

Ate the leftover of steambot..

for lunch n dinner..

haiz...no outing....

that's my Christmas for this year....

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对不起。。。

最近我让很多人担心

我很想说对不起

你们不用担心

我一定会开开心心的话下去

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为什么？

为什么？为什么会搞到这样？

我不明白。。。明明是好好的。。。

也许是我自己拿来的。。。

可以变成好像以前这样吗？

答案已经在面前。。。就是不可能。。。

我知道我之前感觉到的都是对的。。。

但是为什么会变成这样呢？

现在我只希望全部都会变更好。。。

我希望会比以前好

可以吗？

天啊。。。为什么你这样对我。。。

这不是第一次了。。把我身边的人带走。。。

我希望，你已经安排了一个好的结局给我。。。

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Emptiness...

Honestly, i don't really know how i feel right now...

A few hours ago, i was listening to 4minute's songs...

It did cheer me up a little...but no doubt, when i stop listening it's like i'm kinda getting down..

i'm not really emo-ing...it's juz that i felt empty...for the same reason?

Maybe..but I can't tell...

i have to find something to do to keep myself busy...but what can i do?

today everyone should be eating tang yuan...but i think i won't be eating...even if i want where can i find it?

a few days later it's gonna be christmas...what would my christmas be like this year?

i guess what i wish is impossible...

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是我自己拿来的。。。

是我自己拿来的。。。

This is what I'd post in my fb status 7 hours ago...

Many comment and ask me why...

I juz ignore..

but I know if I show that I'm emo-ing, stuff might gone worse...

So I post another status saying I'm not emo...

Usually, I will post a link to fb after I've done writing a post....

but I think I won't do it this time...

I hope what I've done doesn't annoyed u juz now...

Although I had a feeling that I had...

What else can I do?

nothing...juz hope that everything is normal in the future...

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I guess I did it again...

I think I overdid it again juz now...

I'm not sure but I got the feeling that I did...

Honestly it makes me emo awhile..

but I didn't want anyone to know...

So I lied...I said I'm not...

Supposely I shouln't write it here if I didn't want anyone to know...

But where else I can write it out?

I can't take it keeping it all to myself...

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Friendster!!!

Today I went back to Friendster and take a look..

Haha!It's been a loooong time since I login to Friendster!

Then what I did...

I delete all my posts that I'd wrote in my blog in there!

I don't dare to even take a look coz it's all sad stuff I'd wrote...

Then I went to my Facebook and search for email address...

I've found a couple of profile!Not all!

And found some funny stuff!

Juz imagine Patrick was actually Andrew!LOL!

U guys juz guess urself who I'm talking about!

And Heric San's profile picture is sooo funny!LOL!

I'm gonna search for more!Haha!

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I wish u are here for Christmas...

Yesterday I went out with Joanne, King Foong and Yew Ken...

We went to Pavilion and took a lot of pictures...

It somehow makes me think of Meow Meow coz everytime if Joanne is there Meow Meow sure will be there...

But this time is different...

I went to her facebook profile and I post it to her inbox telling her that I would be great if she was there with us...haha...I know she will always be with us..

.

Actually there was other things I told her but I guess its our secret!Haaha!

Honestly, I don't wanna celebrate a lonely christmas this year...

I'm not sure who will be here...Cindy might still be in Johor or if she back maybe she'll spent time with Mr.A...

Apple's gonna busy with his drama thingy...

So, I really wish 'U' will be here for Christmas....

Merry Christmas!^^

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Confession of Shopaholic : My Pink Collection

At last...these are my pink collection!!!

Some I bought it from TS and some from MV...

These are the overall of my pink collections...

1st, this is the 1st shirt I bought at TS yesterday while acc-ing Cindy and her friend shopping...I 'accidentally' bought it...Haha!!It cost me RM39.90

Then I went to my favourite shop in TS..Hehe!I guess u guys know which shop that is....And I bought this SNSD's cap and a glow-in-the-dark wristband..The cap cost RM25 and the wristband cost RM19.90...I actually bought a SNSD's file too...haha!

Then I found this in F.O.C., the shirt actually cost RM20 but I bought 2 so it's cheaper...It cost RM16 each...I didn't post another one coz it's green!LOL! And I love the belt so much! It cost only RM27

Then today in MV, I went to F.O.C again....Haha!My 1st 2 boxers..LOL!It didn't look pink here but the line and the squares are actually light pink..2 for RM35...Then I bought the pink singlet at People's and it cost RM29.90...Actually the boxers and the singlet made a great match for pajamas right...haha!

Then when I acc Cindy to buy christmas present, I bought this for RM4.80...Haha..I guess I'm gonna use it as one of the way to write down how I felt...and keep it in the capsule...Then maybe I'll get better...LOL!

That's all for what I bought...

I know I spent a lot but this is one of the way to prevent me from being emo...LOL!

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The Shopaholic me is back again...

Today suppose to be a where that I acc Cindy and her friend to shop for clothes....

but in the end I bought a lot of stuff but he didn't buy anything...=.=

anyway, I accidentally bought a lot of pink stuff...

My fav colour!!!haha!

I won't post it yet...coz i think it's nt complete yet...

I'm going to get some other stuff 2moro at Midvalley...then i'll post it..

Anyway, after the shopping at TS today, we went to the longest pasar malam in Malaysia..haha!

Guess what I ate...

Sharkfin!!! actually they sell it in SS2 pasar malam during my 1st year...but can't find it here now...

erm...i don't know if it's a little chick or the birds that we usually saw them eating in the Hong Kong drama series...but it taste great!!LOL!

Haha!This is the best!The moment u step to the pasar malam, u will smell it!!Trust me..u dun like the smell coz it smells like shit!hahaha!but when u eat it, it taste great!U guys know what it is right?LOL!

I guess that's all for today, 2moro i'll post my pink collection!^^

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Say no to FACEBOOK and MSN!

Looks like it's time to be away from Facebook and MSN...

I actually got the answer...it seems like not something that I want...

but maybe u r right...after things changes it might be much more better or fun than last time...

so i really wanna thank you!^^

but before that, I guess I really need to learn...

learn how to let go of the past and it's really hard for me to do so coz I'm not really good in that..

haha!

So, i guess it would be better i left Facebook and MSN for awhile..

but I'll be back checking for replies in my inbox anyway...haha!

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p/s : Thanks for always consider how i feel...

Letters sent!

At last...it takes me two days to finish all the letters...

i guess that's all i can do before leaving facebook for a moment...

i saw some of them reply me...

thx for that...i appreciate that...

voon even sms-ed me...

after sending all the letters, i did something stupid...

i sent one to meow meow a.k.a seat yin...

i dunno why but i think of her...

i remember last time when i face this problem she was here...so it makes me think of her...

i know she u there watching her...

i think she knew everything that happened...

hope she's ok up there..

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Thinking about hyung again...

Haha..I just update my status in facebook about Aiden Lee...

LOL!It's DongHae hyung actually...

Then I went to Twitter and check his update...

It's been a long time since I did that..

I'd missed a lot of his update but he's still cool...

You guys might think that I'm dreaming or what but I wish I would meet him in person one day..

Then we could be friend..haha!

hmm...wonder when will that happen...

Hwaiting!! Hyung, best of luck!^^

Cool outfit!!!

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At last...

at last, i guess everything settled...

but i duno yet..maybe juz for this moment..

hmm...i understand actually the problem is me..coz it happen twice so obviously it's my problem..

i'm not gonna blame anyone...

sometimes i guess emo is not a bad thing...at least i saved some money and haha of course can diet oso...

and although today is my last paper and everyone say merdeka....i dun think so...

don't forget we still have our 4 credit hours final year project that haven't complete...so i consider that i haven't finish all my paper this sem...

haiz..i wonder when can stop worrying about my final year project...

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why?...

Supposingly I should be very happy today...

coz my exam end...

should be enjoying watching Rapunzel with my coarsemates...

but I didn't..

Juz as I finish the paper, I felt so down, even during the paper, I can't concentrate..

but luckily I went through it finish everything I can in time...

as my lecturer collect my paper, she ask me am I not feeling well, I juz force a smile towards her and shake my head...

I didn't know what I do will make you so angry..

but don't I deserve a second chance?

I did everything apologize to you but you ignore me..

I hope you would scold me or insult me rather then ignore me...

People say I'm crazy coz emo until didn't eat at all...

but I juz don't have the appetite to eat...

Maybe it's all because of me..

from the 1st step, I tried too hard...tried to hard to get closer to you...

People might not understand me...

But now I wanna let everyone know, FRIENDSHIP is one of the most important thing to me ever...

So, what you are doing now is taking me part by part...

it hurts.. but I won't blame you...

I juz hope you will not ignore me...

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Never felt this before...

As I mentioned in the previous post...

I've did something that make my friend angry...

I've never seen him so angry before...

I said sorry to him but he haven't reply me...

I'm scared...

I lost a best friend before...I don't want it to happen again...

What should I do???

I used to hear this phrase : Butterfly in my stomach...

and now I felt it...

2moro I had to sit for my last paper...

I dun think I can concentrate...

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Sorry...

Today I did something that make someone angry...

I wanna say sorry to him...

I don't if he saw it or not...

so I try a lot of way to say sorry to him...

Hope he will saw it in one of them...

T_T

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My another weird dream...

It's Monday night...

The day I gave my 1st time to See Heng, Choun Hong and Mun Choong....

Don't think too much..

My 1st time to go to Tropicana Mall and my 1st time to taste the food of Subway!Haha!

We went for movie..Harry Potter!

But before that we went to the arcade...

We discovered something funny and I video-taped it!Hehe! (I'll keep it a secret until he allow me to reveal it)

Then at last I'd bought SNSD poker card!

On that night, I had a weird dream...What's weird is not how the storyline goes but the role playing in that dream...

And here it goes...

I had an elder brother and elder sister sitting on the sofa while I was sitting on the floor...playing I guess...

I can't really remember the face of my elder sister but guess what...the elder brother is See Heng!

When I wake up I was like...What the...how come a 妹妹 become a 哥哥...haha!

Anyway, in reality, I don't have any elder brother or sister...

although I wish I could have one...

Sometimes I'm so jealous watching those who have elder brothers and sisters...

I seems so much fun..

Like See Heng, I was there when he was packing and I saw his MP4 I guess...He told me he got it free..from his elder sister...

LOL!Anyway, I'm gonna stop talking bout this stuff coz ppl already tired of listening to this..

I've been saying this since long ago...haha!

Yeah...I admit I act like a kid but that's me...LOL!

Cindy Kong told me during my second year and Kim NS told me yesterday!LOL!

But I like the way I am!

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p/s : i miss u guys...those who already went back...

In case if you happen to read this...

In case if you read this,

I want you to know

I don't want anything from you..

Just do what you like and what you are comfortable of doing..

but what I want is the moment like last time..

So please don't change it..

Coz I really can't take it..

It's been bothering me when things between us started to change...

Plz let me kn0w the answer...

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Fairy tale?

There's nothing like fairy tales in life...

Coz every moment, my heart hurt so much...and it never stops...

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I've got a confession...

Last night was a very long night..

can't sleep...

keep on thinking about it...

listen to a few songs...

keep on repeating those songs..

tears are falling continuously...

then i post a new post writing how i feel...

i don't really dare to tell that person...

what i can do is juz post it here..

anyway, thx to all puto that cares...

i knew i've been emo about this..

u guys wanna help me n i knew...

thx to jee yeng too...

but the thing is i'm not ready to tell yet..

it's something big...

more than u guys could imagine...

it's really a burden keeping it all by myself but that's the only thing i can do...

honestly, until now, only cindy kong knew it..

it took me a lot of courage to tell her even though i know that she can accept this easily...

but i'm sure one day i'm gonna explode it out and everyone's gonna know about that...

confession of emoboy...

something that i want you,you and you to know...

"...so sorry that i loved you, sorry that i needed you, sorry that i held you tight..."

"...i don't wanna fall to pieces, i just wanna sit and stare at you, i don't wanna talk about it, and i don't want a conversation, i just wanna cry in front of you, i don't wanna talk about it coz i'm in love with you..."

"... 等下一個天亮 去上次牽手賞花那裡散步好嗎, 有些積雪會自己融化, 你的肩膀是我豁達的天堂... "

"... 我想我不会爱你， 害怕失去， 所以逞强的，远远看着你 ..."

"...我想我不會愛你 只是也莠~~~"

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damn....i'm gonna explode...

sometimes ppl think i've changed...

but did u guys think about yourself before judging me?

i'm sick of that...

ppl keep on thinking i'm someone who forget about the old friends when i have new friends!

shit!

if i did it's not like what's gonna happened right now..

u guys are not even in my memory..

what i wanna say is that everyone i know have their place in my heart..

but i dun wanna explain much coz none of u gonna understand...

the pressure i face right now..

yesterday i chat with cindy kong

and juz now i chat with peisian

about another problem...

on the other hand she cheer me up

by talking bout snsd..

damn...if this continue,

i don't think i can concentrate on my studies...

anyway, for ppl who think i had change, think whatever u want!damn!

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easy to say, hard to do...

Sometimes ppl really piss me of...

out of nowhere suddenly pop up from the chat telling me..,"hey, i know u very busy,then no need chat la"

DAMN!!!

what have i done to u?

i know sometimes i didn't reply u guys it's because i'm away but my laptop is just like 7/11 24hours available!

shit..i'm not in the mood now...

sometimes i tell myself i will ignore what others think of me but it is easier to say than to be done...

Last night i was still figuring out my problem...

then had a chat with Cindy Kong..

we both face similar problems..

but i know she's stronger..

at least she took the 1st step...

but me, i have to think and consider before i take the 1st step...

sometimes it's kinda funny because me n Cindy have quite a number of similarities..

lol

our matric number...

mine is 080003 hers 090003 haha!

anyway, felt great chatting with her..

at least i can share it with someone rather than taking it all by myself...

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my past...

since the last one, i really haven't had any feelings with any girls...

although i could really have a potential relationship..

during that time, i was still hurt...

yesterday night, i visit her profile in fb...

i didn't know if i can take it or not..

it turns out that i was confused..

i didn't know what's that feeling really is...

but i quickly close the page...

i still remember during cc trip...the most suffering moment ...

i knew a lot of ppl notice that..

coz she's there..and he's there too...

apple n jacky was there to support me...

phoebe and kit yee too, we had dinner together at a same table and i can feel that they are trying to cheer me up...

really miss them now...

everytime when i went to pasar malam with cindy, jacky and apple, they are arguing whether to let me drink 'ai yu ping' or not...

when i think back, it's kinda funny...

they keep on telling me there's another girl that could potentially be my gf...

but i didn't really wanna think of it..

and i don't wanna start a relationship when i'm not sure about what i feel towards her...

until now, i really can't find the feeling yet..

a couple of days ago...

a guy from fb saying that i'm cute..

he's trying to flirt but i didn't resist...

i just let him flirt...

i told him the profile picture is not me...

he took a tour on my albums and he told me i still look cute..

then i notice that only guys think that i'm cute...specifically gays..=.=

oh no...

i don't wanna be one...if i did i'm dead...

coz i know i'm gonna lose a lot of friends...

but sher lynn's gonna be happy...

she told me once it would be great if i'm gay..

sometimes i wish i could be like heng mei mei coz he's cute!

lots of secret admirer..haha!

looks like this year i'm not going to get the cutest guy award again!

yup, i get 1st during my 1st year...

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give up again....

While I was preparing for my final exam, I started it out with some confidence because we have three weeks of study week!!!

I finished studying for the first round...

Then, I plan to to all the past year questions that I have..

Unfortunately, when I open up the questions that Di Wen and Jing Hsen sent to me, I stated to give up

yup...I found out that I don't quite understand what the notes said...Arghhh...

But luckily I survived seaweeds coz I kinda know how to answer the questions...at least I didn't left it blank...

Today, I started my day with playing games....

Yup, to train my skill in Pokemon...

Too bad my laptop can't play and even if I get to borrow a laptop, everyone else is playing another game...

Haha..I'm a noob in this kind of game anyway except the classic type of adventure game of Pokemon.

So when everyone is playing, I decided to do the past year questions of Wildlife....

Again, when I was looking at the question, I can't find the answer in the notes...T_T

I even search for the answer from the internet but I still can't get all of them...

So, I decided to give up again...

What I plan to do now is to read again all the notes rather than focus on the part of past year questions...

Haiz.. I hope the answer for the final exam questions can be found in the notes...T_T

Wish me luck....Hwaiting!!!

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Shocked....and worried...

Finally, I finished my algae pigment report...haiz...

but...when I start looking at seaweeds past years question and try to search for the answer in the notes, I gave up...arrghh...study already but it's like I haven't study...

So, I decided to take a nap..

And then went for supper with KNS, Xiuz, See Heng and Mei Mei ..

And the roti today does not taste well anyway..

After that, we chat..and suddenly Mei Mei say he's tired...but Xiuz and KNS keep on chatting...

He say wanna go back 1st then I suggested we go back together..

When I was paying money, he suddenly fainted...

Luckily Xiuz has experience in handling such condition...

I was so shocked...the 1st time I saw this...

He was partially unconscious...and does not remember everything that happened..

but at last things getting better..

Kinda worried now...hope he will get a good rest...

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I miss the day....

Finally, it has come to an end...

I miss the holiday..

Where everyone is 'duo luo'...

Especially when not much ppl is still in college...

Just a few grapes were here...

We went out for dinner, pasar malam, supper...

Especially the one when Puto Hong bring Puto Liang, Puto Chai and me out to picadilly...

Having western food!!!

And my Manhattan Seafood Chowder taste so good...LOL!

But I regret we didn't order the Tower...

Then we came back and watch Piranha together...eww...geli...

Then the next day we went out for breakfast....

+ Puto Onion...

Ordered Lo Mai Kai cost RM 3.60 each...LOL!!!

Then we went to Dataran Sastera to 'study'

Puto Hong addicted to games anyway...

Today we went for lunch at 'Qu Tai Pei'

We all ordered the same thing except Puto KNS...LOL

Unfortunately, it all ends today....

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2PM forever!^^

Today is a normal day for me...

but not a very good day..

Juz that at the end of the day I'm kinda moody...

But thx to Taec hyung a.k.a. Lincoln who chat with me...

Yeah, he's a great hyung anyway!

Sometimes I wish I really know him in person...

Of course include Khun hyung a.k.a. Allen...Haha!

Most of the time when I'm not happy they will be there at FB...LOL!

7/11 24hours available!Haha!

Juz wanna say that I'm thankful for knowing both of them!

Thx hyung!^^

2PM FOREVER!

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Love~

Love...

What do u guys think while looking at this word?

I still remember the 1st time...when I listen to Hebe's Love!

A lot of ppl think that the song is kinda like not really great (include Pei Sian & Sher Lynn).

But I think the lyric is so meaningful...

See Heng agree that this song is not bad!Haha!

Who else agree with both of us?

This song really kinda wake me up...

It says that why in this world everyone love other ppl but not themselves..

Then I was thinking maybe I should start loving myself rather than hurting myself by loving ppl that do not love me...Haha!

Today, I'm having dinner with King Fong and Jacky...

They are talking about their love story...Haha..

At least they had one...I don't have any...

I guess I have no luck with girls...LOL!

I was thinking if I'm gay, I should already be in a relationship now...Hahaha!Just kidding!

but it's true coz a few of them kinda flirting me...haha!

Again...gay or not...the important is Love...

The reason a guy wanna be with a girl or a girl wanna be with a guy is Love..

The same goes to gays and lesbians...

So why discriminate them?

since the reason is the same...

Anyway, lets just Love ourselves more!!!

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No comment...

Lately people keep questioning about my sexuality...

Ya..I know I look like one and there's a lot of gays in my facebook friend list...

Honestly, I don't mind people think that I am one...It just that I don't want everyone to ignore me thinking I am one of them...

Is that so important that sexuality is an important factor of choosing your friend?

I used to have a friend..that I considered as a close friend...

People keep on talking about us...what else?gay!this is what they say..

He told me he don't mind at first...but after some time he started to ignore me...

I didn't know what's wrong until he confess to me saying that he think that I am gay.

I was so disappointed and I tried to act like nothing had happened.

That's kinda like the hardest thing I have to face in my life..

Until now, whenever I think I become close to a friend I would try to step back coz I don't want things to happen again..

But does it works?

I don't think so...coz I'm suffering...even now...I didn't know what to do..

Arrggghh!!!

It's frustrating!

Come on...I hope I can read others mind so I know what they are thinking...

Do they freak out?Or they way I act makes them uncomfortable?

And yes, I do have a few gay friends that I know them in person...

Lately, one of them is in a relationship...Congrats!!^^

I'm happy for him because being a gay, it's hard to find a boyfriend coz you juz can't tell the world that you are gay...the same goes to lesbian...

Yes I like pink and so what?pink = gay?

That's what everyone's mindset..

That's not the problem...the problem is do I really need to be alone until the end?

In this rate, I'm not gonna be able to get a close friend...

I know a lot are still waiting for my answer but I will still remain silent...

Coz I really don't get it..izit so important to not having a gay as a friend if u are straight?

One more thing...I would really like to know who's the one asking Apple am I gay...LOL!

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I'm in love with "YOU"...

Ming Liang's laptop keep on playing this song...and I think I'm in love with it....

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
and I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you,
'Cause I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you,
I'm in love with you.

It really tells how I feel anyway..especially the chorus...haha!

Actually, I did notice this song long ago...haha!

Anyway, when I was searching for this song in Youtube what I found are all covers...means that it was sang by other ppl and there's one which is quite good...enjoy!

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Something about me.....and DongHae hyung!

It has been a long time since I felt so close to DongHae hyung...XD

I was watching Mystery 6 a few days ago and it makes me miss DongHae hyung again!

And today when I was searching 소녀시대's Hoot wallpaper, I found an article...and it's about DongHae hyung!

And I found out that we do have a lot of similarities...

and I think those similarities are something that I can find in another person especially guys!haha!

Ok! for those who didn't really understand me, u guys will learn something about me here...

These are the similarities...:

• Donghae is afraid to be alone, when he eats, he needs someone to accompany him, or else he refuses to eat.
• He’s a crybaby, soft-hearted and thinks a lot. (it explains why I'm always emo...)
• He likes to ‘hang’ his chin on other people’s shoulder. (If someone don't mind me doing that^^)
• He is dislike any sweet food. (I don't really like foods that are too sweet..it explains why i prefer dark chocolate than the others)
• He likes the feeling of being protected, being cared for.
• Little 13 (Kyuhyun) said “I feel honoured to know Donghae Hyung, but when I’m with him, I feel like I’m more like the hyung.” (I guess this statement refering him as childish?

So, these are the few similarities...of course there is are differences too...the most obvious one would be...

Donghae dislikes pink a lot.. because opposite his bed is Sungmin’s wardrobe and it’s full of pinkish stuffs, clothes, dolls, pillow, bags and shoes are all pink.

Haha!!!

Reference:

Source; SJ-M’s Baidu吧, posted by 葬花人在街角

http://hanraena.wordpress.com/2010/04/10/dong-haes-fun-facts/

Yup...It has been a long time since I was updating myself in Twitter..I'd missed a lot of updates by DongHae hyung...

Sometimes I would think that it will be great if he is my hyung..of at least I know him in person..haha!we might get along coz both of us love to have fun actually...

Anyway, I don't wanna expect much on something coz whenever I wish for something so much I will not get it!Haha!...

So I guess today u guys learn a little bit of something about me...

confession of emoboy...

Another "Busy" Day...

Yup...another day had passed...

juz finish packing my stuff...2moro gonna move down

although only for 2 weeks but I've got lots of stuff here..LOL!(as usual)

As planned, today I went to Fahrenheit 88 with Phoebe Chong & Dozz...

Yup...We queued for UNIQLO...but what suprised me n Phoebe is that when we are deciding whether to queue or not (coz the Q is long...), Dozz juz push me into the queue!!!LOL!

Then he's officially on of us now!The Shopaholics!!!

However, UNIQLO is kinda disappointing...lot's of winter clothes...nothing special....but I've bought 2 tshirt..then we walk around Fahrenheit 88 and I was struggling while to decide whether to buy the sweater or not!at the end I didn't.

Then we went to Pavilion for a walk...Phoebe dragged us into Burberry and she discovered some nice bags!LOL!

Then here comes ZARA!!and it's heaven there!!!

Lots of nice coats!!!

Then we went to Forever 21 and found a pair of boots with only RM149 ++

Again, struggling coz I really want it but end up didn't buy!!!

The price is reasonable anyway...

Hope I can get one in the future...or a few days later!!!

Then I came back and fb-ed then start packing...

When I was packing, I realised that before this I would like to post something but I didn't....

Yup...It's about the PTUM dedication...

Amazingly, this year I've received lots of dedication..

1 from Jeff, 1 from Jacky, 1 from You Xin, 1 from Jeck Kee and 2 from See Heng!!!LOL!

Maybe for lots of ppl that doesn't mean anything for them, but for me it means alot...

In the sense that, ppl remember me?LOL!

but honestly, since I was in 1st year I'm the one who always dedicate stuff to others but I didn't received any...until this sem!LOL!

Really thankful that ppl remember me!^^

Oh yeah! The mooncake that See Heng dedicated to me is one of my favourite flavour!Green Tea!LOL!

Anyway, I hope after today I can Spend some of my time shopping and I would really like to have that boots!!!

And waiting for the grapes to come back for outing and yam cha!^^

confession of emoboy (+ shopaholic) ...

Alone....

Yup...after today, I'll be the only Puto left in KK4...

I know I should be doing my assignment and report right now but I feel like express my feelings right now...

right this moment, windy and kinda cold...LOL! I guess it's gonna rain later...

I'm used to the life where everynight go 'yam cha' with the Putos...

Tonight when there's no Putos left I'm thinking back of my life for this whole sem...

Haha! Thx to all the Putos for such a great time that we had...

We went for lim teh, outing, and gaming (although gaming is not really my thing!haha!)

I'd went for movie with some of the Putos a few time but I haven't went to karaoke with them..I hope we can do it soon!^^

Haha...still remember the 1st time went out for movie with Putos...me, Jeff, See Heng and Chee Ching...right after MKB..and that's the 1st time I met Pinky!

Anyway, today's her B'day! 생일 축하합니다!!!^^

There's once where I was planning to go MidValley alone and See Heng acc me!LOL!and we met Apple there...

Haha!Too many to be recalled back...

The time we ate grapes together..

The time we spent during PTB (although I'm not one of the AJK)...

And yeah..before I forget I wanna thx Mei Mei for the ride to SC Fac to take my exam slip...

What else I can say....

Hope that u guys faster come back...

confession of emoboy...

Worried but somehow....

It's been a few weeks where I was trap in the world of emo AGAIN!!!

Right now, I somehow confuse that am I still emo-ing or not...but one thing I'm sure is that I'm worried...

Yup...it involves the past memory of mine...

As ppl around me keep on suspecting me as gay...

Honestly, I don't mind how ppl see me.

What I mind is that ppl gonna ignore me.

It's something really hard when someone is ignoring you when u really need that person so much..

What I mean need here is not the need to be loved

but it's the need to be acc-ed.

I'm a person who would stick to someone when I felt close to them..

Sometimes it really freaks ppl out and they would end up ignoring me...

It's true...I'd been through it during my 1st year..

Right now, that's what I'm worried about....

I don't really know if anyone notice that I was so close to See Heng and Jeff lately..

Yup, it happens that during the period before raya break and during raya break I was so used to it where See Heng and me would chat with me through msn...

(and not to forget Lincoln that I refer as TaecYeon hyung that would chat with me through FB everynight!Haha!)

When I was used to it, I would felt uncomfortable when it stops...

Still I'm worried that I would have freaks him out..

Honestly, I don't wanna been through all this "losing a friend" thingy once more since it happened in my 1st year...

but I juz didn't know how would I explain or talk to him about this...

and yes...I'm not good in talking....especially face to face

Sometimes I would think of leaving him alone so that not to freaks him out but still I ended up sending SMS asking if he wanna go for tea or not...

This issue has been bothering me for a few weeks and that's the reason I emo-ed for so long..

Of course thx to those who care bout me asking me not to emo....You Xin, Jin Jin, WenLi, Ming Liang...etc...

However, I found my way to reduce the emo virus in me...

And I starts asking Jeff out for anything...lunch, dinner, breakfast, outing..

Yeah, I felt awkward at 1st...

It's all due to his relationship with Jeck Kee (sorry to mention it but I really wanna make it clear)

I'd heard the problem from Jeck Kee but not from Jeff...

I'm not sure what's he's thinking coz he didn't really approach me and talk about that...

and as the outsider i guess i can't comment much but juz listen...

I still hope he would have told me the problems that happened between them coz I don't wanna judge anything just based on one side's story...

After went out with him a few times, everything's back to normal..and I hope he's comfortable with the situation now...

The main purpose I wrote this post is to let them read on how I felt..I don't wanna make it worst but I guess there's the risk of everything's screwed up...but if I didn't do so, I'm gonna regret when things are too late to be corrected...And I would like Jeff and See Heng to know that they really are some of the great friends that I ever had...and I really don't wanna lose this friendships...

confession of emoboy...

Holiday starts!!!!

Finish my presentation on the behaviour of sheeps today!!!!Yay!!!!

and our Mafia King gave a really funny presentation!haha!It makes our Candle Princess Phoebe laugh unstopable!

I was laughing too....but i think the funny thing is the way Phoebe laughs instead!!!hahahaha!

Then we went to pasar malam together + Sher Lynn!

I've bought myself a beach shorts and a pair of crocs for my Tioman trip with the sisters...

I can't wait for the trip!!! >.<

confession of emoboy...

Feeling better today! ^^

Yesterday is emoday but today is not really a bad day...

skipped one class coz can't wake up...

probably because I can't sleep the night before...

went to lunch with coursemates : Mafia King, Candle Princess Phoebe and Thunder Ting

Thunder Ting bring along her pets!hahaha!everyone is looking at it!

Then went for Dr Mark's class..

Acc my 'daughter' for lunch while waiting for 'sui zai bao' who end up having lunch with his coursemate...

Then went for an early dinner with Sher Lynn and went for pottery class...

Did my group assignment which is a candle holder.

Then help in PTB's 'banting' and went for CC meeting...

Then wait for 'sui zai bao' for late dinner but he's playing DOTA!!!!!

Haha!At least it's not a bad day!^^

And now I'm listening to Honey (소원) by 소녀시대 !!!^^

confession of emoboy

Holiday = Emoday

It's public holiday and i actually don't like wasting it

but i end up wasting it...

i spend most of the time walking around UM alone while listening to Hebe's 寂寞寂寞就好..

as usual emo-ing + thinking

and it reminds me of stuff that happened during the previous sessions...

then this questions came to my mind...

Is that really hard for me to have a really really close friend?

Why still i can't find one?

and i came up with my own conclusion....

maybe it's because i was hurt before..

right now, if i get really close to someone, automatically i'll pull myself back from being too close with that person...

I didn't know how to overcome this problems right now..

it's like i'll hurt someone when i was trying to protect myself..

I think i did it a few times to a few people out there...

I would like to say sorry to them..

and i'm getting close with 'Shui Zai Bao' recently...

i hope things wont go complicated like before...

anyway, Happy Independence Day...

people wish me that and I was thinking they should had wish me Happy Emoday instead...

confession of emoboy...

Confused...

It's been a long time since I write something here..

Yup...

I'm actually avoiding this page...I'm worried that I might get emo again listening to the song I embedded...

I've been thinking a lot since then...

I was confused of what I want, what I need and even who am I...

I've notice that sometimes I'm hiding my feelings when ppl are around me...

So, what u guys see during my 2nd might not be true...even I can't tell which part is...

I guess most of u would have know the reason why I'm so unhappy..

Yup..1 of the reason is my 21st B'day present..

If u guys remember what happened back then, that's the worst B'day present I've ever received...

Everyone says 21st B'day is kinda important...but it's the worst for me...

It was Saturday and most of the sisters are not around...

Only Sher Lynn's there and also other 'dao dengs'..haha!

Thx for being around back then coz it was a great support...

My 22nd B'day is just around the corner...

And SNSD's Tiffany's too...

Yup..be have the same B'day!

and this year is her 21st...Hope she'll have a great one...not like mine...

At the same time I hope I get what I wish this year...

Anyway, I can't wait to go back to UM...juz because I wanna go out and grab my SNSD photobook!^^

But I'll miss Lee Joon hyung coz I can't watch Star Golden Bell Challenge anymore...T_T

confession of emoboy...

Some memories need to be deleted...

I've talk to Cindy...

Cried like hell..

Felt better for this moment..

and I don't know when I'm gonna emo again...

Thx to Cindy anyway...

She told me he will look after me from above...

Part of me are glad but part of me are not, asking why it should be from above but not right here...

but what's happened already happened..

next is to depends on me on the action that I need to take...

I've decided to delete a few pictures from my facebook anyway...

coz some memories need to be erased...

I wish that it never even happened...

confession of emoboy...

My another confession...

Yesterday I had another weird dream again...

And Super Junior are there...

I felt close to them yet far away...

I'm kinda confused about how I feel...

I guess it's because of my 明星梦..LOL!

Sometimes I really hope my life is like theirs...

At least they are good to each others..

I know a lot of people gonna think I'm an idiot thinking like that

Coz u guys have no idea how I feel now..

Whenever I saw Donghae hyung post something on Twitter I'm gonna think it'll be great if I'm there..

I felt that we share a lot of similarities but definitely not the look...

he's far away more good looking than I am

Just now I was watching a video that You Xin post in facebook...

It reminds me of my 1st year

but it's not gonna happen to me anymore

then I notice that throughout my 2nd year I'm actually faking a smile whenever I'm around with other people..

Why?Because I put too much hope that he's gonna be my best friend ever during 1st year...

Yes, we are close for the 1st semester of 1st year...

but I wonder if anyone notice that my attitude towards him changed during the 2nd semester...

As I know, Afiq noticed that and Wei Ming notice that I'm more happy during the 1st semester.

That's right...something did happened at the end of the 1st semester...it disturb me so much ...

It takes me so hard to overcome it until I did at the end of 2nd semester..

Back then, I thought everything gonna change back to normal but I was wrong...

another issue happened again...

I was hurt once more...I know it's not his fault this time but I just can't take it anymore..

Due to this, I'm now having this barrier whenever I meet new people

Coz I don't wanna get hurt again...

I don't dare to get to close with someone yet I wish I have someone that I can trust...

It's so complicated that I'm sometimes confused of what I want!!!

That why I'd mentioned in my previous post saying that it will be great if I could be friend with Lee Joon hyung or DongHae hyung...

but I know it's not gonna happen

I wish there's someone that I can show him my true self...

I wonder am I going to feel better if my elder brother is still here..

Although I haven't met him before but I kinda missed him after the dream that I had couple of days ago...

사랑하, 형...

I miss u...

confession of emoboy...

별별별(☆★☆) ...Star Star Star...

I would like to dedicate this song to him...

who I believe he's now one of the stars up there...

별별별(☆★☆)

(hana dul set tto hana dul set michigetda byeoldeura)

amuri chyeodabwado niga boijil anha oh baby du nune gadeuk goin nunmul ttaemune da neo ttaemune
beonjyeojin geulja wiro bichin uneun nae eolgul oh baby tto ulji mallago nal dajimhaebwado tto ureo

na eotteokhae (molla eotteokhae eotteokhae) na ireoke (molla michige ireoke)
da neo ttaeme (jeongmal neo ttaeme) na amugeotdo hal su eobtjanha nan neol

*byeolbyeolbyeol byeolmankeum saranghae watdeongeoya neoreul chaja jeo meolliseo neon Shining star
byeolbyeolbyeol byeolmareul da haebwado pyohyeoni andwae jeongmal neomuna dapdaphae ije nan eotteoke haeya hana

hana dul seeo bwado kkeuchi boijil anha oh baby gaseume gadeuk damgin chueok ttaemune tto ni saenggage
mot dahan yaegil kkeonae honjatmalppun irado oh baby neol dollyeodallago nal bonaedallago ni gyeote

kkok butakhae (jebal ireoke butakhae) kkok haneure (naui gidoreul haneure)
nal wirohae (nareul wirohae) jundaneun neon eodie inni jebal

byeolbyeolbyeol byeoldeura malhaebwa kkeutnangeoni geureongeoni daedaphaebwa utjiman malgo
byeolbyeolbyeol byeoldeura butakhae dan hanbeonmanirado nal nae sarang ni gyeote naragal su itge haejwo

Star Star Star
Uh~Baby Star Star Star Ahh~

nan neol byeolbyeolbyeol byeolmankeum saranghae watdeongeoya neoreul chaja jeo meolliseo neon Shining star
byeolbyeolbyeol byeolmareul da haebwado pyohyeoni andwae jeongmal neomuna dapdaphae ije nan eotteoke haeya hana

(하나 둘 셋 또 하나 둘 셋 미치겠다 별들아)

아무리 쳐다봐도 니가 보이질 않아 oh baby 두 눈에 가득 고인 눈물 때문에 다 너 때문에
번져진 글자 위로 비친 우는 내 얼굴 oh baby 또 울지 말라고 날 다짐해봐도 또 울어

나 어떡해 (몰라 어떡해 어떡해) 나 이렇게 (몰라 미치게 이렇게)
다 너 땜에 (정말 너 땜에) 나 아무것도 할 수 없잖아 난 널

*별별별 별만큼 사랑해 왔던거야 너를 찾아 저 멀리서 넌 Shining star
별별별 별말을 다 해봐도 표현이 안돼 정말 너무나 답답해 이제 난 어떻게 해야 하나

하나 둘 세어 봐도 끝이 보이질 않아 oh baby 가슴에 가득 담긴 추억 때문에 또 니 생각에
못 다한 얘길 꺼내 혼잣말뿐 이라도 oh baby 널 돌려달라고 날 보내달라고 니 곁에

꼭 부탁해 (제발 이렇게 부탁해) 꼭 하늘에 (나의 기도를 하늘에)
날 위로해 (나를 위로해) 준다는 넌 어디에 있니 제발

별별별 별들아 말해봐 끝난거니 그런거니 대답해봐 웃지만 말고
별별별 별들아 부탁해 단 한번만이라도 날 내 사랑 니 곁에 날아갈 수 있게 해줘

Star Star Star
Uh~Baby Star Star Star Ahh~

난 널 별별별 별만큼 사랑해 왔던거야 너를 찾아 저 멀리서 넌 Shining star
별별별 별말을 다 해봐도 표현이 안돼 정말 너무나 답답해 이제 난 어떻게 해야 하나

this is what the song means...

(One two three
Again, one two three
Stars…I’m going crazy)

No matter how hard I look I can’t see you
Oh baby
Because of the tears welled up in my eyes
All because of you
My reflection in the tear-stained words I write
Oh baby
And though I swore I wouldn’t cry, I cry again

What do I do?
(I don’t know what do I do, what do I do?)
Why am I like this?
(I don’t know I’m going crazy like this)
All because of you
(Really because of you)
I can’t do a single thing
I

Star, star, star love you as much as the stars
Were you ever here?
I search for you afar,
You are a shining star
What, what, whatever words I tell myself,
I can’t express it, I’m really
So frustrated
So what am I supposed to do now?

Now matter how long I count I don’t see the end
Oh baby
Because of the memories filled in my heart
and because of thoughts of you.
Even if it is useless to think and I only tell myself
Oh baby
I’ll ask for you to come back to me, to my side

I ask earnestly
(Please I’m begging like this)
To the sky
(I send my prayers to the sky)
The one who cares
(cares for me)
Where is he?
Please

Stars, stars, stars, tell me please
Is it over?
Is that how it is?
Please talk to me, don’t just smile
Star, star, star, I’m begging to the stars,
Even if it is only once
Let me fly
to be with my love

Star, star, star
Star, star, star

I star, star, star I love you as much as the stars
Were you ever here?
I search for you afar,
You are a shining star
What, what, whatever words I tell myself,
I can’t express it, I’m really
So frustrated
So what am I supposed to do now?

confession of emoboy...

My confession....

A few days ago, one of my friend told me that she's now in a relationship!

WOW! Haha! I knew she's been waiting for this moment for sooo long!

So, Congrats!!

And today I went out with a few friends and we have a nice chat!

I miss the moment when we were in form 6!>.<

Lots of fun during that time...

I feel that it was fun when a group of single friends went out and have fun together!

Suddenly one of them was asking the other,"should I tell him?"

LOL! So I guess that my friend is in a relationship now!

and yes it's true!!!LOL!!

So many good news that I heard from people around me!

Of course I'm happy for them...

but when will it be my time?

I didn't ask for any relationship but something else...

coz I always fail in that....

so I better concentrate on other stuff that is important to me...

confession of emoboy...

Still emotionally unstable....

Today I was listening to SNSD's 별별별(☆★☆)-Acoustic RnB Version in the car when I was on my way to my aunty's house...

Suddenly something just struck in my mind...

Yup, it's the dream that I mention in my previous post...

I was thinking how would I be right now if things are different...

Am I going to be more happy?

And I almost cry thinking of that...

Being emotional is the other side of me that I seldom show to everyone...

This few post recently might review it to those who haven't seen this side of me before...

I might look like I can take anything and being strong but the truth is I just hide everything and keep it to myself..

I wonder when will this thing end...

confession of emoboy...

Who's that?...

Last night I was dreaming of someone....

someone who's familiar yet I can't remember his face...

but the feeling is still fresh in my mind..

he was comforting me while I was crying..

and the reason I cry?...I can't really remember...

What I can remember is that I was a small kid at that time...

and my cousin appeared in that dream too...

she was still in her early 20's I guess...

but what I'm curious the most is who's that guy..

I felt comfortable around him..

Is he my elder brother who does not even have his chance to see this world?

I knew I had one but I haven't met him before...

Sorry for being so emotional...

confession of emoboy...

Hwaiting!!!

I know I shouldn't be sitting in front of my laptop for this holiday!

So what I'm going to do is to train!Hehe!

What I have in my house is a pair of dumbbell and I'll make use of it...

But with just that I can only train my arms...T_T

The chest is the problem...It's quite hard to train

the same goes to the abs T_T

I've tried my best not to eat too much...

I'm now only taking breakfast and dinner!

I hope I can really get my chest shaped coz I don't want Kit Yee and the others call me Victoria Secret again...T_T

Hwaiting!I can do it!

I wonder if I can find any gym buddy so that we can go to gym together next session!Hehe!

confession of emoboy...

Anothar one?!

LOL!

someone share this new video in facebook and I accidentally saw it!

Yeah, it's another new boy band from korea!

their dance steps are catchy!

OMG! I'm gonna get addicted more seriously now!

Now it's just K-POP in my life...

I didn't even update if there are new chinese or english songs..

Recently I just keep on Ring Ding Dong and Bonamana-ing!LMAO!

yup! This is the video I'm talking about...

It's Come Back Again from Infinite!

However, I might prefer ZE:A than Infinite...

ZE:A seems like the male version of SNSD

and I love their MAZELTOV sssssooooo much! HAHA!

and I love DongJun's hair so much!

I wish I can have it!haha!

I wonder if that hairstyle suit me...

confession of emoboy...

LOL! He's funny!!!

It's Wednesday and I watch another episode of Star Golden Bell!

It's different from the last one! I guess that's a new season.

But Lee Joon hyung from MBLAQ is still there.

As usual he's sooo funny!Haha!

And it reminds me of his funny moment in the last few episode!

Haha!he's showing his flexibility!

Although he's the same year with me but he seems like a hyung to me!haha!(I should call him so coz he's a few month older than me!)

I wish I could have a friend like him...

at least someone's gonna make me laugh when I'm getting emotional...

Haiz...Don't know why I often emo...guess it's already a habit..

Anyway, in today's episode, the host was asking him about how he got into the industry

He said that he went for an audition and got rejected..

he gave up and decided to continue schooling..

and then someone was asking him if he wanna meet Rain and he did

Rain like him so much and that's how he got into the industry!

Lucky him!

I wish I would get any chance to meet DongHae hyung, HanGeng hyung, Leeteuk hyung, SuJu's members, SNSD's members (celebrate my B'day together with Tiffany!!LMAO!) or even Lee Joon hyung himself so I might get a chance to be in that industry!Haha!

I know it's funny but that's my dream...

I don't know why I have the feeling that it's gonna happen but now is just not the time yet...

One of the reason why I get emo sometimes...

confession of emoboy...

I guess he's ok right now...

I've googled for HanGeng's latest news and i found a websites about HanGeng...

He's working with other celebrities in China in a TV show...

So I guess he's ok right now.

But Leeteuk hyung is the one I'm worried about right now...

As a leader of Super Junior, he needs to take care of every members and I know it's hard coz I've seen a lot of that..

He needs to hide his emotion as well...

Yesterday he post a picture through twitter

It's a picture of Super Junior with all 13 members

and he miss that happy moment..

and there's another picture taken by a fan showing that he's kinda daydreaming...

guess he's thinking bout that stuff..

"Leeteuk hyung, Hwaiting!!

Don't worry too much and do ur best!

We'll always support u guys"

Really hope that I can tell him personally...

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Any HanGeng's News??

I was boring and searching around for pictures (I don't even have any clue of whose picture I'm searching!Haha!)

Then I just type 'Donghae Bonamana' to see if I could find any picture for my laptop's background

However, I came across a lot of HanGeng's picture

Not a new one...

I've read from wikipedia saying that he's kinda having kidney illness but didn't know how's his condition now

I didn't even heard about him from the others members

Just read from an article about Leeteuk saying that they hope HanGeng will change his mind and come back as one of the Super Junior...

Hope he's ok right now...

Anyway, see what I came across while searching for pictures just now...

Haha!It's Susan Ng look-a-like maybe filipino girl!Haha!

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Happy Birthday, YoonA!!!

It's SNSD's YoonA's birthday today!

Wish her a happy birthday and successful always!

Dedicate the song Tell Me Ur Wish (Genie) to her so that she can tell her fans her wish!Haha!

Can't get it out of my head!!!!!

Oh No!!! I'm addicted to another songs with cool dance steps!

The feel that I get is SNSD + SuJu or maybe the male version of SNSD!

MAZELTOV by ZE:A

Aho yo!
It's shutting down, Love
It's shutting down, Blind
It's shutting down, Passion

GET GET GET, live it up.

Jump up jump up jump up jump up, Oh
Jump up jump up jump up jump up, Hoo
Jump up jump up jump up jump up,
Jump up jump up jump up, Break it dancing.

[Kevin] Break it down, red beat down, knock you down, here we go
[Siwan] Oh uh uh uh uh uh uh, jakku jakku niga nareul chomchugehae
[Heechul] Latin girl, Mexican girl, Korean girl, Japan girl
[Dongjun] Dugeundaeneun simjangi meomchujil anha
yeh yeh yeh mirror mirror mirror

[Gwanghee] jakkuman nareul moreuncheokhaneun neowi maeungwa
[Dongjun] Ni ggajitgeo hana motijneun, naega neomuna neomuna
duryeoweo
[Hyungsik] Heujeo danji happening, dareun saram mannaneungeon
hepeuni
[Siwan] Neodo nareulbomyeon namankeum apeuni
[Dongjun]neodo apeudamyeon naege hanmadihaejweo

[Junyoung] Mazeltov himnaebwa, Mazeltov useobwa
[Junyoung] Mazeltov, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday
[Heechul] Friday, Saturday, Sunday
[Junyoung] Mazeltov, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday
[Heechul]Friday, Saturday, Sunday
[Dongjun] gudaega naege ajujakeun himirado dwaesseomyeon johgesseo
my my my girl

Mazeltov himnaebwa
Mazeltov, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday
Friday, Saturday, Sunday
[Heechul] Friday, Saturday, Sunday

[Junyoung] Oh uh uh uh uh uh uh jibeo, jibeo, jibeochiwo jeonsinnollae
[Heechul] Latin girl, Mexican girl, Korean girl, Japan girl
[Minwoo] 365 ilchummanchullae yeh yeh yeh mirror mirror mirror

[Kevin] Gileya ilnyeon geuribgetji, animyeon handal
[Kevin] Modu kkutnatdagoman hamyeon apa, naega baboji
[Hyungsik] Geujeo danji happening, dareun saram mannaneungeon
hepeuni
[Dongjun] Neodu dareulbomyeon namankem apeuni,
neodo apeudamyeon naegehan madihaejwo

[Siwan] Mazeltov himnaebwa, Mazeltov useobwa
[Siwan] Mazeltov, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday
[Heechul] Friday, Saturday, Sunday
Mazeltov, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday
[Heechul] Friday, Saturday, Sunday
[Dongjun] geudaega naege aju jakeun himirado dwasseomyeon jotkesseo
my my my girl

Mazeltov [Kevin] himnaebwa
Mazeltov [Kevin] usebwa, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday
[Heechul] Friday, Saturday, Sunday
[Heechul] Friday, Saturday, Sunday

[Kevin] Introducing EMPIRE BOYS
[Heechul] Ujue issneungeo gata jeulkeowo
onmomi teojilkeo gata bangaweo
Sinnaege jeulgyeoboja. Mad Time Right
[Haehun] Everybody sonjabgo bangbangddwieo

[Heechul] Latin girl, Mexican girl, American girl
Japan girl, Korean girl
[Taehun] Fantastic hae, Magical hae, Neoneun MA MA MA MA MA MA Magic

Mazeltov himnaebwa, Mazeltov oseobwa.
Mazeltov, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday
Friday, Saturday, Sunday
Mazeltov, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday
Friday, Saturday, Sunday
[Dongjun] gudega naege ajujakeun himirado dwaesseomyeon johkeeso
my my my girl

Mazeltov himnaebwa,
Mazeltov, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday
Friday, Saturday, Sunday
Friday, Saturday, Sunday

Mazeltov, All people, Mazeltov

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Officially an E.L.F. ....besides being a SONE

I am still following the SuJu hyungs in twitter...

as usual, Donghae hyung is the most active one!haha!he's addicted to twitter.

while Eunhyuk hyung is also influenced by Donghae hyung..

Leeteuk hyung too sometimes post some pictures

and saw them chatting with Heechul hyung!haha!

but it has been a long time since i heard from Henry...

LOL!he's funny anyway!I mean Donghae hyung...

I notice that his SS level quite high too!haha!

Anyway, 1 more day!It's gonna be YoonA's birthday!

I was thinking if SNSD will celebrate their birthday with their fans or not...

If yes, I don't mind celebrate my birthday together with Tiffany coz our birthday is the same!

Haha!..yeah I was dreaming!LOL!

and I found 3 more friends from facebook who are also SONEs too!

I did upload SNSD's picture and tagged them!

but too bad I was asking around if there's any E.L.F

all I get is everyone said that they are Cassies!

Actually I'm not only follow the SuJu hyungs in twitter

I follow U-KISS's member too...not all of them have twitter but one by one they are playing twitter..

Currently, Kevin, Alexander, Kibum and Soohyun are playing while Dongho is not active in twitter!

Alexander keep on update himself a lot and Soohyun is picking up!haha!

Hopefully, I can find more about them...Just like Donghae hyung

all his fans could understand him more and feel closer to him

It is a good thing anyway!

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Missing Donghae Hyung....

As usual, I've been following Donghae hyung in twitter...and Henry too!..

Henry went back to Canada even before 'Bonamana' is out...and it's been a long time..

saw him posting picture of him and his younger sister today!haha!

and I saw Donghae hyung posted something to Henry..it says ,"Henry I miss u call me man^^ take care man"

haha!sweet right!

I agree with my cousin...she says that Donghae hyung keeps on update himself and make us feel closer to him.

After reading the post, it really makes me feel closer to Donghae hyung!and I love seeing brothers or friends that are so close and I'm so jealous that I don't have one!haha!

Honestly, I've been having a really a tough time being the eldest!

I admit that I don't have the stuff needed to be one...

And I've always wanting to have an elder brother although I know that's impossible..

So I've been hoping to find someone I mean a friend that could be one...

And I think that's why I'm missing Donghae hyung right now!

Anyway, wish everyone good luck and cherish the one you are close to!Hwaiting!

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So 'Bonamana' right now...

Lately I've been following Super Junior's Donghae in Twitter almost everyday!

What can i say....Donghae hyung is so attractive that makes me wanna be like him!LOL!

I know it's impossible!

I wish I could be in a group just like Super Junior (minus the incident of HanGeng who is no longer one of the member)

Honestly, it's kinda wasted when a group are broken up...I don't really know what happened but I don't really like it...

And Bonamana is out now!Man, the song is so addictive! The video is so cool! Haha! Can't stop replaying it!

Since I've been following Donghae hyung coz he's the only one update frequently plus the Bonamana fever, I was reminded of something that I've long forgotten..

Yup! It's my dream...

Afiq ask me what's the problem of that

and I answered I'm lack of confidence...

That's the problem..I just can't find it...It has been gone long ago...

maybe I was frequently defeated by lots of stuffs..

but inside me, I stiff have the hope that someday it will happen...

Lately, I did chat with Li Ee through facebook..

This lonely Japanese girl kinda worried bout the sisters issue over here

and I told her it's not easy to get everything back to how it was but at least it didn't go any worse anymore..

things just stop and that's it...nothing happened

and she starts asking me bout am I interested in korean girls...weird!

and we end up chatting on the plastic surgery issues!haha!

and I wonder if any of the Super Junior members did their plastic surgery or not especially Donghae hyung coz he looks so perfect!haha!

Anyway, Donghae hyung Hwaiting! Super Junior Hwaiting!

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What A Dream....

I was sleeping just now and I was dreaming something weird...

I was in some kind of reality show kinda like SHINee's Hello Baby but with lots of baby around...LOL!

And what I remember the most is the playful Jonghyun, Onew and Minho was there at 1st and Jonghyun was so active like always in Hello Baby and he kinda 'dirtied' my shirt!

The next thing I can remember is that the next scene where Shiah and Voon was there but everyone dressed weirdly like some kind of costume party..LOL...and what I can remember is the SHINee are sleeping and then I woke up...

I would be great if I can stay a little bit longer in that dream...

Maybe it's been so stress lately studying for exams...

I'm gonna sit for my next paper in a few hours...Entomology...don't know what I can do..

I'm clueless bout what Dr. Azidah want for the answers since the previous test..

At the same time, I wish I have someone around my age to talk to...Maybe that's why I was dreaming about having fun with the SHINee...

Seriously, when I was watching SHINee's Hello Baby, I found out that they are my ideal best friend or close friends especially Minho and Jonghyun would be a friend that always make me smile when i was stress....Yeah, that my stupid thinking!coz it's not gonna happen anyway...

I might not even found someone like them..Haha

But in my heart I still hope I could....

To my coursemates....

Good Luck in the Entomology exam later and Don't give up!!!(as what Afiq said)

...and F.U.C.K. (fokus untuk capai kejayaan).....which means focus to succeed!^^

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