emoboy will always be emoboy....

Looks like I didn't named my blog wrongly...

"emoboy's stories..."

Don't get me wrong...

It doesn't mean I'm emo-ing now...

Even if I am, I'm gonna keep it to myself coz I'd said b4 I won't emo in front of ppl again..

Juz that I post something in my FB status n someone told me that he/she felt that I'm always emo...

He/She can felt it even if I smile...

Haha!that's why I said...

emoboy will always be emoboy!^^

Actually sometimes I felt happy too...

Maybe the time I felt happy doesn't last long...

It will somehow end really quickly!LOL!

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Christmas is over...

Let's begin with my Christmas eve...

It starts kinda badly...

Have to go to Sc Fac to pic up my stuff for fieldtrip but raining...

So I wet back to block D to take my umbrella...

Found out that my stuff in my desk are all gone!!!Damn...

They throw it all away...

So I search for it and took the whole bag of 'rubbish' which belon

gs to my room...and lock it in my room...Stupid 4th Pihak Pengurusan!Yes I said it! You ca

n throw me out of 4th if u want! F*#$ U!!!

Then I went to Sc Fac...

A Damn car drive so quickly that it splash all the water all over me!F*#$ U too!!!

Went back and took a bath and go back to Block D to check if any

thing's left out...

Found some stuff belong to D211...Took it all back n put it back in their room...

Ah Soon came back and suggested to do steambot...

went to Tropicana mall to buy some stuff...

Yeah! that's our Christmas eve dinner!

And something did happen...

At least my Christmas eve gone better at the end of the day...

but my Christmas is kinda boring...

Ate the leftover of steambot..

for lunch n dinner..

haiz...no outing....

that's my Christmas for this year....

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对不起。。。

最近我让很多人担心

我很想说对不起

你们不用担心

我一定会开开心心的话下去

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为什么？

为什么？为什么会搞到这样？

我不明白。。。明明是好好的。。。

也许是我自己拿来的。。。

可以变成好像以前这样吗？

答案已经在面前。。。就是不可能。。。

我知道我之前感觉到的都是对的。。。

但是为什么会变成这样呢？

现在我只希望全部都会变更好。。。

我希望会比以前好

可以吗？

天啊。。。为什么你这样对我。。。

这不是第一次了。。把我身边的人带走。。。

我希望，你已经安排了一个好的结局给我。。。

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Emptiness...

Honestly, i don't really know how i feel right now...

A few hours ago, i was listening to 4minute's songs...

It did cheer me up a little...but no doubt, when i stop listening it's like i'm kinda getting down..

i'm not really emo-ing...it's juz that i felt empty...for the same reason?

Maybe..but I can't tell...

i have to find something to do to keep myself busy...but what can i do?

today everyone should be eating tang yuan...but i think i won't be eating...even if i want where can i find it?

a few days later it's gonna be christmas...what would my christmas be like this year?

i guess what i wish is impossible...

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是我自己拿来的。。。

是我自己拿来的。。。

This is what I'd post in my fb status 7 hours ago...

Many comment and ask me why...

I juz ignore..

but I know if I show that I'm emo-ing, stuff might gone worse...

So I post another status saying I'm not emo...

Usually, I will post a link to fb after I've done writing a post....

but I think I won't do it this time...

I hope what I've done doesn't annoyed u juz now...

Although I had a feeling that I had...

What else can I do?

nothing...juz hope that everything is normal in the future...

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I guess I did it again...

I think I overdid it again juz now...

I'm not sure but I got the feeling that I did...

Honestly it makes me emo awhile..

but I didn't want anyone to know...

So I lied...I said I'm not...

Supposely I shouln't write it here if I didn't want anyone to know...

But where else I can write it out?

I can't take it keeping it all to myself...

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Friendster!!!

Today I went back to Friendster and take a look..

Haha!It's been a loooong time since I login to Friendster!

Then what I did...

I delete all my posts that I'd wrote in my blog in there!

I don't dare to even take a look coz it's all sad stuff I'd wrote...

Then I went to my Facebook and search for email address...

I've found a couple of profile!Not all!

And found some funny stuff!

Juz imagine Patrick was actually Andrew!LOL!

U guys juz guess urself who I'm talking about!

And Heric San's profile picture is sooo funny!LOL!

I'm gonna search for more!Haha!

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I wish u are here for Christmas...

Yesterday I went out with Joanne, King Foong and Yew Ken...

We went to Pavilion and took a lot of pictures...

It somehow makes me think of Meow Meow coz everytime if Joanne is there Meow Meow sure will be there...

But this time is different...

I went to her facebook profile and I post it to her inbox telling her that I would be great if she was there with us...haha...I know she will always be with us..

.

Actually there was other things I told her but I guess its our secret!Haaha!

Honestly, I don't wanna celebrate a lonely christmas this year...

I'm not sure who will be here...Cindy might still be in Johor or if she back maybe she'll spent time with Mr.A...

Apple's gonna busy with his drama thingy...

So, I really wish 'U' will be here for Christmas....

Merry Christmas!^^

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Confession of Shopaholic : My Pink Collection

At last...these are my pink collection!!!

Some I bought it from TS and some from MV...

These are the overall of my pink collections...

1st, this is the 1st shirt I bought at TS yesterday while acc-ing Cindy and her friend shopping...I 'accidentally' bought it...Haha!!It cost me RM39.90

Then I went to my favourite shop in TS..Hehe!I guess u guys know which shop that is....And I bought this SNSD's cap and a glow-in-the-dark wristband..The cap cost RM25 and the wristband cost RM19.90...I actually bought a SNSD's file too...haha!

Then I found this in F.O.C., the shirt actually cost RM20 but I bought 2 so it's cheaper...It cost RM16 each...I didn't post another one coz it's green!LOL! And I love the belt so much! It cost only RM27

Then today in MV, I went to F.O.C again....Haha!My 1st 2 boxers..LOL!It didn't look pink here but the line and the squares are actually light pink..2 for RM35...Then I bought the pink singlet at People's and it cost RM29.90...Actually the boxers and the singlet made a great match for pajamas right...haha!

Then when I acc Cindy to buy christmas present, I bought this for RM4.80...Haha..I guess I'm gonna use it as one of the way to write down how I felt...and keep it in the capsule...Then maybe I'll get better...LOL!

That's all for what I bought...

I know I spent a lot but this is one of the way to prevent me from being emo...LOL!

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The Shopaholic me is back again...

Today suppose to be a where that I acc Cindy and her friend to shop for clothes....

but in the end I bought a lot of stuff but he didn't buy anything...=.=

anyway, I accidentally bought a lot of pink stuff...

My fav colour!!!haha!

I won't post it yet...coz i think it's nt complete yet...

I'm going to get some other stuff 2moro at Midvalley...then i'll post it..

Anyway, after the shopping at TS today, we went to the longest pasar malam in Malaysia..haha!

Guess what I ate...

Sharkfin!!! actually they sell it in SS2 pasar malam during my 1st year...but can't find it here now...

erm...i don't know if it's a little chick or the birds that we usually saw them eating in the Hong Kong drama series...but it taste great!!LOL!

Haha!This is the best!The moment u step to the pasar malam, u will smell it!!Trust me..u dun like the smell coz it smells like shit!hahaha!but when u eat it, it taste great!U guys know what it is right?LOL!

I guess that's all for today, 2moro i'll post my pink collection!^^

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Say no to FACEBOOK and MSN!

Looks like it's time to be away from Facebook and MSN...

I actually got the answer...it seems like not something that I want...

but maybe u r right...after things changes it might be much more better or fun than last time...

so i really wanna thank you!^^

but before that, I guess I really need to learn...

learn how to let go of the past and it's really hard for me to do so coz I'm not really good in that..

haha!

So, i guess it would be better i left Facebook and MSN for awhile..

but I'll be back checking for replies in my inbox anyway...haha!

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p/s : Thanks for always consider how i feel...

Letters sent!

At last...it takes me two days to finish all the letters...

i guess that's all i can do before leaving facebook for a moment...

i saw some of them reply me...

thx for that...i appreciate that...

voon even sms-ed me...

after sending all the letters, i did something stupid...

i sent one to meow meow a.k.a seat yin...

i dunno why but i think of her...

i remember last time when i face this problem she was here...so it makes me think of her...

i know she u there watching her...

i think she knew everything that happened...

hope she's ok up there..

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Thinking about hyung again...

Haha..I just update my status in facebook about Aiden Lee...

LOL!It's DongHae hyung actually...

Then I went to Twitter and check his update...

It's been a long time since I did that..

I'd missed a lot of his update but he's still cool...

You guys might think that I'm dreaming or what but I wish I would meet him in person one day..

Then we could be friend..haha!

hmm...wonder when will that happen...

Hwaiting!! Hyung, best of luck!^^

Cool outfit!!!

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At last...

at last, i guess everything settled...

but i duno yet..maybe juz for this moment..

hmm...i understand actually the problem is me..coz it happen twice so obviously it's my problem..

i'm not gonna blame anyone...

sometimes i guess emo is not a bad thing...at least i saved some money and haha of course can diet oso...

and although today is my last paper and everyone say merdeka....i dun think so...

don't forget we still have our 4 credit hours final year project that haven't complete...so i consider that i haven't finish all my paper this sem...

haiz..i wonder when can stop worrying about my final year project...

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why?...

Supposingly I should be very happy today...

coz my exam end...

should be enjoying watching Rapunzel with my coarsemates...

but I didn't..

Juz as I finish the paper, I felt so down, even during the paper, I can't concentrate..

but luckily I went through it finish everything I can in time...

as my lecturer collect my paper, she ask me am I not feeling well, I juz force a smile towards her and shake my head...

I didn't know what I do will make you so angry..

but don't I deserve a second chance?

I did everything apologize to you but you ignore me..

I hope you would scold me or insult me rather then ignore me...

People say I'm crazy coz emo until didn't eat at all...

but I juz don't have the appetite to eat...

Maybe it's all because of me..

from the 1st step, I tried too hard...tried to hard to get closer to you...

People might not understand me...

But now I wanna let everyone know, FRIENDSHIP is one of the most important thing to me ever...

So, what you are doing now is taking me part by part...

it hurts.. but I won't blame you...

I juz hope you will not ignore me...

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Never felt this before...

As I mentioned in the previous post...

I've did something that make my friend angry...

I've never seen him so angry before...

I said sorry to him but he haven't reply me...

I'm scared...

I lost a best friend before...I don't want it to happen again...

What should I do???

I used to hear this phrase : Butterfly in my stomach...

and now I felt it...

2moro I had to sit for my last paper...

I dun think I can concentrate...

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Sorry...

Today I did something that make someone angry...

I wanna say sorry to him...

I don't if he saw it or not...

so I try a lot of way to say sorry to him...

Hope he will saw it in one of them...

T_T

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My another weird dream...

It's Monday night...

The day I gave my 1st time to See Heng, Choun Hong and Mun Choong....

Don't think too much..

My 1st time to go to Tropicana Mall and my 1st time to taste the food of Subway!Haha!

We went for movie..Harry Potter!

But before that we went to the arcade...

We discovered something funny and I video-taped it!Hehe! (I'll keep it a secret until he allow me to reveal it)

Then at last I'd bought SNSD poker card!

On that night, I had a weird dream...What's weird is not how the storyline goes but the role playing in that dream...

And here it goes...

I had an elder brother and elder sister sitting on the sofa while I was sitting on the floor...playing I guess...

I can't really remember the face of my elder sister but guess what...the elder brother is See Heng!

When I wake up I was like...What the...how come a 妹妹 become a 哥哥...haha!

Anyway, in reality, I don't have any elder brother or sister...

although I wish I could have one...

Sometimes I'm so jealous watching those who have elder brothers and sisters...

I seems so much fun..

Like See Heng, I was there when he was packing and I saw his MP4 I guess...He told me he got it free..from his elder sister...

LOL!Anyway, I'm gonna stop talking bout this stuff coz ppl already tired of listening to this..

I've been saying this since long ago...haha!

Yeah...I admit I act like a kid but that's me...LOL!

Cindy Kong told me during my second year and Kim NS told me yesterday!LOL!

But I like the way I am!

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p/s : i miss u guys...those who already went back...

In case if you happen to read this...

In case if you read this,

I want you to know

I don't want anything from you..

Just do what you like and what you are comfortable of doing..

but what I want is the moment like last time..

So please don't change it..

Coz I really can't take it..

It's been bothering me when things between us started to change...

Plz let me kn0w the answer...

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Fairy tale?

There's nothing like fairy tales in life...

Coz every moment, my heart hurt so much...and it never stops...

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