Holiday = Emoday

It's public holiday and i actually don't like wasting it

but i end up wasting it...

i spend most of the time walking around UM alone while listening to Hebe's 寂寞寂寞就好..

as usual emo-ing + thinking

and it reminds me of stuff that happened during the previous sessions...

then this questions came to my mind...

Is that really hard for me to have a really really close friend?

Why still i can't find one?

and i came up with my own conclusion....

maybe it's because i was hurt before..

right now, if i get really close to someone, automatically i'll pull myself back from being too close with that person...

I didn't know how to overcome this problems right now..

it's like i'll hurt someone when i was trying to protect myself..

I think i did it a few times to a few people out there...

I would like to say sorry to them..

and i'm getting close with 'Shui Zai Bao' recently...

i hope things wont go complicated like before...

anyway, Happy Independence Day...

people wish me that and I was thinking they should had wish me Happy Emoday instead...

confession of emoboy...