My another confession...

Yesterday I had another weird dream again...

And Super Junior are there...

I felt close to them yet far away...

I'm kinda confused about how I feel...

I guess it's because of my 明星梦..LOL!

Sometimes I really hope my life is like theirs...

At least they are good to each others..

I know a lot of people gonna think I'm an idiot thinking like that

Coz u guys have no idea how I feel now..

Whenever I saw Donghae hyung post something on Twitter I'm gonna think it'll be great if I'm there..

I felt that we share a lot of similarities but definitely not the look...

he's far away more good looking than I am

Just now I was watching a video that You Xin post in facebook...

It reminds me of my 1st year

but it's not gonna happen to me anymore

then I notice that throughout my 2nd year I'm actually faking a smile whenever I'm around with other people..

Why?Because I put too much hope that he's gonna be my best friend ever during 1st year...

Yes, we are close for the 1st semester of 1st year...

but I wonder if anyone notice that my attitude towards him changed during the 2nd semester...

As I know, Afiq noticed that and Wei Ming notice that I'm more happy during the 1st semester.

That's right...something did happened at the end of the 1st semester...it disturb me so much ...

It takes me so hard to overcome it until I did at the end of 2nd semester..

Back then, I thought everything gonna change back to normal but I was wrong...

another issue happened again...

I was hurt once more...I know it's not his fault this time but I just can't take it anymore..

Due to this, I'm now having this barrier whenever I meet new people

Coz I don't wanna get hurt again...

I don't dare to get to close with someone yet I wish I have someone that I can trust...

It's so complicated that I'm sometimes confused of what I want!!!

That why I'd mentioned in my previous post saying that it will be great if I could be friend with Lee Joon hyung or DongHae hyung...

but I know it's not gonna happen

I wish there's someone that I can show him my true self...

I wonder am I going to feel better if my elder brother is still here..

Although I haven't met him before but I kinda missed him after the dream that I had couple of days ago...

사랑하, 형...

I miss u...

confession of emoboy...