Love~

Love...

What do u guys think while looking at this word?

I still remember the 1st time...when I listen to Hebe's Love!

A lot of ppl think that the song is kinda like not really great (include Pei Sian & Sher Lynn).

But I think the lyric is so meaningful...

See Heng agree that this song is not bad!Haha!

Who else agree with both of us?

This song really kinda wake me up...

It says that why in this world everyone love other ppl but not themselves..

Then I was thinking maybe I should start loving myself rather than hurting myself by loving ppl that do not love me...Haha!

Today, I'm having dinner with King Fong and Jacky...

They are talking about their love story...Haha..

At least they had one...I don't have any...

I guess I have no luck with girls...LOL!

I was thinking if I'm gay, I should already be in a relationship now...Hahaha!Just kidding!

but it's true coz a few of them kinda flirting me...haha!

Again...gay or not...the important is Love...

The reason a guy wanna be with a girl or a girl wanna be with a guy is Love..

The same goes to gays and lesbians...

So why discriminate them?

since the reason is the same...

Anyway, lets just Love ourselves more!!!

confession of emoboy...

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Lately people keep questioning about my sexuality...

Ya..I know I look like one and there's a lot of gays in my facebook friend list...

Honestly, I don't mind people think that I am one...It just that I don't want everyone to ignore me thinking I am one of them...

Is that so important that sexuality is an important factor of choosing your friend?

I used to have a friend..that I considered as a close friend...

People keep on talking about us...what else?gay!this is what they say..

He told me he don't mind at first...but after some time he started to ignore me...

I didn't know what's wrong until he confess to me saying that he think that I am gay.

I was so disappointed and I tried to act like nothing had happened.

That's kinda like the hardest thing I have to face in my life..

Until now, whenever I think I become close to a friend I would try to step back coz I don't want things to happen again..

But does it works?

I don't think so...coz I'm suffering...even now...I didn't know what to do..

Arrggghh!!!

It's frustrating!

Come on...I hope I can read others mind so I know what they are thinking...

Do they freak out?Or they way I act makes them uncomfortable?

And yes, I do have a few gay friends that I know them in person...

Lately, one of them is in a relationship...Congrats!!^^

I'm happy for him because being a gay, it's hard to find a boyfriend coz you juz can't tell the world that you are gay...the same goes to lesbian...

Yes I like pink and so what?pink = gay?

That's what everyone's mindset..

That's not the problem...the problem is do I really need to be alone until the end?

In this rate, I'm not gonna be able to get a close friend...

I know a lot are still waiting for my answer but I will still remain silent...

Coz I really don't get it..izit so important to not having a gay as a friend if u are straight?

One more thing...I would really like to know who's the one asking Apple am I gay...LOL!

confession of emoboy...

I'm in love with "YOU"...

Ming Liang's laptop keep on playing this song...and I think I'm in love with it....

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
and I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you,
'Cause I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you,
I'm in love with you.

It really tells how I feel anyway..especially the chorus...haha!

Actually, I did notice this song long ago...haha!

Anyway, when I was searching for this song in Youtube what I found are all covers...means that it was sang by other ppl and there's one which is quite good...enjoy!

confession of emoboy...

Something about me.....and DongHae hyung!

It has been a long time since I felt so close to DongHae hyung...XD

I was watching Mystery 6 a few days ago and it makes me miss DongHae hyung again!

And today when I was searching 소녀시대's Hoot wallpaper, I found an article...and it's about DongHae hyung!

And I found out that we do have a lot of similarities...

and I think those similarities are something that I can find in another person especially guys!haha!

Ok! for those who didn't really understand me, u guys will learn something about me here...

These are the similarities...:

• Donghae is afraid to be alone, when he eats, he needs someone to accompany him, or else he refuses to eat.
• He’s a crybaby, soft-hearted and thinks a lot. (it explains why I'm always emo...)
• He likes to ‘hang’ his chin on other people’s shoulder. (If someone don't mind me doing that^^)
• He is dislike any sweet food. (I don't really like foods that are too sweet..it explains why i prefer dark chocolate than the others)
• He likes the feeling of being protected, being cared for.
• Little 13 (Kyuhyun) said “I feel honoured to know Donghae Hyung, but when I’m with him, I feel like I’m more like the hyung.” (I guess this statement refering him as childish?

So, these are the few similarities...of course there is are differences too...the most obvious one would be...

Donghae dislikes pink a lot.. because opposite his bed is Sungmin’s wardrobe and it’s full of pinkish stuffs, clothes, dolls, pillow, bags and shoes are all pink.

Haha!!!

Reference:

Source; SJ-M’s Baidu吧, posted by 葬花人在街角

http://hanraena.wordpress.com/2010/04/10/dong-haes-fun-facts/

Yup...It has been a long time since I was updating myself in Twitter..I'd missed a lot of updates by DongHae hyung...

Sometimes I would think that it will be great if he is my hyung..of at least I know him in person..haha!we might get along coz both of us love to have fun actually...

Anyway, I don't wanna expect much on something coz whenever I wish for something so much I will not get it!Haha!...

So I guess today u guys learn a little bit of something about me...

confession of emoboy...

Another "Busy" Day...

Yup...another day had passed...

juz finish packing my stuff...2moro gonna move down

although only for 2 weeks but I've got lots of stuff here..LOL!(as usual)

As planned, today I went to Fahrenheit 88 with Phoebe Chong & Dozz...

Yup...We queued for UNIQLO...but what suprised me n Phoebe is that when we are deciding whether to queue or not (coz the Q is long...), Dozz juz push me into the queue!!!LOL!

Then he's officially on of us now!The Shopaholics!!!

However, UNIQLO is kinda disappointing...lot's of winter clothes...nothing special....but I've bought 2 tshirt..then we walk around Fahrenheit 88 and I was struggling while to decide whether to buy the sweater or not!at the end I didn't.

Then we went to Pavilion for a walk...Phoebe dragged us into Burberry and she discovered some nice bags!LOL!

Then here comes ZARA!!and it's heaven there!!!

Lots of nice coats!!!

Then we went to Forever 21 and found a pair of boots with only RM149 ++

Again, struggling coz I really want it but end up didn't buy!!!

The price is reasonable anyway...

Hope I can get one in the future...or a few days later!!!

Then I came back and fb-ed then start packing...

When I was packing, I realised that before this I would like to post something but I didn't....

Yup...It's about the PTUM dedication...

Amazingly, this year I've received lots of dedication..

1 from Jeff, 1 from Jacky, 1 from You Xin, 1 from Jeck Kee and 2 from See Heng!!!LOL!

Maybe for lots of ppl that doesn't mean anything for them, but for me it means alot...

In the sense that, ppl remember me?LOL!

but honestly, since I was in 1st year I'm the one who always dedicate stuff to others but I didn't received any...until this sem!LOL!

Really thankful that ppl remember me!^^

Oh yeah! The mooncake that See Heng dedicated to me is one of my favourite flavour!Green Tea!LOL!

Anyway, I hope after today I can Spend some of my time shopping and I would really like to have that boots!!!

And waiting for the grapes to come back for outing and yam cha!^^

confession of emoboy (+ shopaholic) ...

Alone....

Yup...after today, I'll be the only Puto left in KK4...

I know I should be doing my assignment and report right now but I feel like express my feelings right now...

right this moment, windy and kinda cold...LOL! I guess it's gonna rain later...

I'm used to the life where everynight go 'yam cha' with the Putos...

Tonight when there's no Putos left I'm thinking back of my life for this whole sem...

Haha! Thx to all the Putos for such a great time that we had...

We went for lim teh, outing, and gaming (although gaming is not really my thing!haha!)

I'd went for movie with some of the Putos a few time but I haven't went to karaoke with them..I hope we can do it soon!^^

Haha...still remember the 1st time went out for movie with Putos...me, Jeff, See Heng and Chee Ching...right after MKB..and that's the 1st time I met Pinky!

Anyway, today's her B'day! 생일 축하합니다!!!^^

There's once where I was planning to go MidValley alone and See Heng acc me!LOL!and we met Apple there...

Haha!Too many to be recalled back...

The time we ate grapes together..

The time we spent during PTB (although I'm not one of the AJK)...

And yeah..before I forget I wanna thx Mei Mei for the ride to SC Fac to take my exam slip...

What else I can say....

Hope that u guys faster come back...

confession of emoboy...

Worried but somehow....

It's been a few weeks where I was trap in the world of emo AGAIN!!!

Right now, I somehow confuse that am I still emo-ing or not...but one thing I'm sure is that I'm worried...

Yup...it involves the past memory of mine...

As ppl around me keep on suspecting me as gay...

Honestly, I don't mind how ppl see me.

What I mind is that ppl gonna ignore me.

It's something really hard when someone is ignoring you when u really need that person so much..

What I mean need here is not the need to be loved

but it's the need to be acc-ed.

I'm a person who would stick to someone when I felt close to them..

Sometimes it really freaks ppl out and they would end up ignoring me...

It's true...I'd been through it during my 1st year..

Right now, that's what I'm worried about....

I don't really know if anyone notice that I was so close to See Heng and Jeff lately..

Yup, it happens that during the period before raya break and during raya break I was so used to it where See Heng and me would chat with me through msn...

(and not to forget Lincoln that I refer as TaecYeon hyung that would chat with me through FB everynight!Haha!)

When I was used to it, I would felt uncomfortable when it stops...

Still I'm worried that I would have freaks him out..

Honestly, I don't wanna been through all this "losing a friend" thingy once more since it happened in my 1st year...

but I juz didn't know how would I explain or talk to him about this...

and yes...I'm not good in talking....especially face to face

Sometimes I would think of leaving him alone so that not to freaks him out but still I ended up sending SMS asking if he wanna go for tea or not...

This issue has been bothering me for a few weeks and that's the reason I emo-ed for so long..

Of course thx to those who care bout me asking me not to emo....You Xin, Jin Jin, WenLi, Ming Liang...etc...

However, I found my way to reduce the emo virus in me...

And I starts asking Jeff out for anything...lunch, dinner, breakfast, outing..

Yeah, I felt awkward at 1st...

It's all due to his relationship with Jeck Kee (sorry to mention it but I really wanna make it clear)

I'd heard the problem from Jeck Kee but not from Jeff...

I'm not sure what's he's thinking coz he didn't really approach me and talk about that...

and as the outsider i guess i can't comment much but juz listen...

I still hope he would have told me the problems that happened between them coz I don't wanna judge anything just based on one side's story...

After went out with him a few times, everything's back to normal..and I hope he's comfortable with the situation now...

The main purpose I wrote this post is to let them read on how I felt..I don't wanna make it worst but I guess there's the risk of everything's screwed up...but if I didn't do so, I'm gonna regret when things are too late to be corrected...And I would like Jeff and See Heng to know that they really are some of the great friends that I ever had...and I really don't wanna lose this friendships...

confession of emoboy...