The Last Letter...

Since the last letter i received from you, i know you will be gone for a long time.
It's so stupid of me that i pretend not to notice that.
But now i realize you're not here anymore.
Still hoping you'll be back.

For some reason, everytime when i feel like giving up there's something that make me continue believing that things will end up good.
So when are you gonna come back? Or you won't?
Coz it seems like you were back ...but it's just in my dream.
i wonder when will it really gonna happen....


confession of emoboy...

3 Idiots ~~

3 Idiots.... Heard about it like lotsa times.
Finally today watched it and what caught my attention would be their friendship.

Wonder if one day I could have a close friend like that but it's close to impossible.
Twice, it happens for the second time.
I was wondering if it's true...
"whenever i get close to someone in a very short time, it will end fast as well"

Now i'm feeling complicated, i couldn't let go of the past.
i don't even know if i could let anyone else in for the next time coz i don't want it to happen again.
i wonder if there's anyone understand how i feel.

"Anyone but me"
that's what's happening now...
you can be close with anyone but not me...and it's obvious

I don't like it, i don't wanna emo in front of everyone but today i just couldn't take it..
i'm tired..mentally...but i turn it to physically and slept for almost whole day.
this can't just continue like that everyday....


confession of emoboy...

I miss L.O.G 4th!!!

Feeling down as I have to go back...
coz I'm used to the situation where L.O.G 4th members are around...
Yup...I cried on the last night in UM~
in D007.. Luckily Ah Ching and Zi-You didn't notice it..
yup..
I miss Khoon Chai ...my dota kaki...
I miss Ah Beh...he always give us a ride and go out for meals...
I miss Ming Liang, See Heng, Ching, Hui Yan...ok la ...and zhong guo mei during our last outing...
I miss Ching maybe last few days spent all my time in D007...not only that .. actually is the whole exam week...Zi-You and Khoon Chai oso...
I miss KNS and Ah Xiuz for their loudness...just notice that long time didn't see Jeff dy...and jia you Mun Choong..
I miss Cindy Heng, Mei Hui (whenever I think of the fart-ing moment~ Haha), Sampat MinYee and Huay Woon, my Lets EMO members CoroCiri and Star for their sampat-ness...
I miss Hexane and Zie Jian...haha...duno why....maybe lately we become quite close is compared to before...
I miss See Heng...although he always bully me...but because he scared I'll emo and at last he will like do what I want...haha!!!...and also his sampat-ness...lately I'd saw his other personalities...quite a lot...haha...his childish side...LOL! so funny!!haha!!
I miss all of you!!!


confession of emoboy...

Time to change the setting...

Sorry guys, i've made a decision...i guess i'm gonna change the setting so that none of other people other than me to read this blog...

i guess by doing that i might be able to write more freely...

why?

problems...

blogging for me is to let people read...

but i didn't know that it would cause so much problems...

i guess the biggest problem that i'm facing right now also starts from here...

it might not end it but it may prevent it to occur again...

confession of emoboy...

Nervous...

This is the 1st time I felt so nervous waiting for the stay college list...

Felt insecure coz I felt like I join not enough activities to be qualified to stay college...

Most of the activities that I join are just performing and I don't think that they stand enough marks for me...

Still, I really hope I get to stay...

or else....

I don't really know where to stay...

confession of emoboy...

Trying hard?...it doesn't helps...

Sometimes people says if you wanna get something you have to try hard...

Sorry, that's the wrong theory...

Why?

Coz I tried so hard but in the end I lost everything!

Dammit!

of course not yet or should I say I don't know if I already lost it...

confession of emoboy...

"一半"

I guess everyone know this song...

Perhaps that's the reason I emo lately...

but what u guys misunderstood is that I'm emo-ing for a girl...

coz the other half that i mean is someone who's really really close to me...a friend...

i never had one such close friend until I'm here in UM

and things happen and i lost it...

second year, i keep on resist until it turns into some kind of anger...

coz I'm scared...scared to lose again...

things getting better when it came to my third year...

i thought i found it back again...

maybe this time i'm afraid of losing...and i grab it too tight...then things start to change...

i make people around me stress...

i'm so frustrated right now...

how do i change myself?

i wonder if i would be given a chance...

a chance so that it would turn back like what it used to be...

coz i'm used to that way already...

it's too late...

too late for me to let go...

confession of enoboy...