你在煩惱什麼???

maybe you don't understand....
don't know what i want....


confession of emoboy...

A trip that I miss so much....

It's too short~~
Those happy moment~
I wonder why happy moment pass by so fast~~

Pangkor~
I went there quite a number of times but everytime with different feel~

Went with Sher, Seph, Ah Se and Shiah~~
we had fun! cycling around then stay there for free~ Haha~~

Then CC Trip~~
Not having a very good time there though...
Something happened but I still remember those who were there for me~ Phoebe, Kit Yee...of course D211 members...

Then fieldtrip~ yup~ spent most of the time working~
we thought we discovered new species though~Haha~

Then recently~~
I would never forget~
Pangkor trip with the Grapes~~
But the time is too short~~
We want more~
We <3 Pangkor!
We <3 Grapes!


confession of emoboy...

I can't...

Sometimes I wish I can...
People keep on asking me not to emo...
But do they actually understand how hard it is?
I mean not to emo...

Maybe it's because I'm already used to it...

There was once I thought I would stop emo from that moment..
but I didn't know things would have turn out to be that bad...

I'd tried...
tried not to emo...
at least not in front of everyone...
I prefer to emo alone somehow so that it will not affect anyone else.


But it's not easy...
I still wish things would gone back to when it was good...
Yes...somehow somewhere inside me, there's still hope...


confession of emoboy...

I'm a cry baby...

OK...I admit it I did it again yesterday night...
Thinking back now, feel so stupid...
for what?
people just don't give a damn~
just forget about the past~
get a new life!
....
Can I?

I said I wanted too~
but just couldn't do it...
when will this stops?
haiz....


confession of emoboy...

yeah i'm stupid...

you just don't get it right...
ok i admit dat i'm still can't let it go...of all that happened b4..
we were too close...i mean so close..the 1st time i have such a close friend
but that's it~ it ended

why? coz i look gay?
whatever...i'm tired of writing it all down
it's not that i care ppl thought i am
i don't even mind...i joke myself sometimes
but the problem is those around me mind..

but tell u what, i'm not gonna change how i am or what i am!
just keep on saying what u guys like~
to the worst i just don't get any friend that's it!
since we were all alone from the beginning

so i'm not changing myself to get what i want at this point
this is not me~
if i did change to get what i want,
it gonna happen all over again~

daamn!


confession of emoboy...

The Last Letter...

Since the last letter i received from you, i know you will be gone for a long time.
It's so stupid of me that i pretend not to notice that.
But now i realize you're not here anymore.
Still hoping you'll be back.

For some reason, everytime when i feel like giving up there's something that make me continue believing that things will end up good.
So when are you gonna come back? Or you won't?
Coz it seems like you were back ...but it's just in my dream.
i wonder when will it really gonna happen....


confession of emoboy...

3 Idiots ~~

3 Idiots.... Heard about it like lotsa times.
Finally today watched it and what caught my attention would be their friendship.

Wonder if one day I could have a close friend like that but it's close to impossible.
Twice, it happens for the second time.
I was wondering if it's true...
"whenever i get close to someone in a very short time, it will end fast as well"

Now i'm feeling complicated, i couldn't let go of the past.
i don't even know if i could let anyone else in for the next time coz i don't want it to happen again.
i wonder if there's anyone understand how i feel.

"Anyone but me"
that's what's happening now...
you can be close with anyone but not me...and it's obvious

I don't like it, i don't wanna emo in front of everyone but today i just couldn't take it..
i'm tired..mentally...but i turn it to physically and slept for almost whole day.
this can't just continue like that everyday....


confession of emoboy...