心痛

不知道你是认真的还是说笑

但是你让我伤心

心里很痛

对不起

都是我的错。。。

confession of emoboy...

Thx...

Today, i was so tired ...like exhausted...it's like gonna get sick...

skipped all class, cause an argument between me n coursemate...coz i skipped class...

frustrated plus assignments n reports not forgetting thesis...

so i decide to just stay in siswa for the whole day...

can't find lunchmate...

then, thx to ming liang acc me for lunch...

coz if not, i'm not gonna eat..

for me, not eating is better than eat alone...

if you find me eating alone, something's wrong with me..

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谢谢你的凉茶。。。

虽然我早就知道一定会收到你的凉茶，

但是我冲siswa回来的时候，

一看到那一瓶凉茶的时候，

那个感觉很不一样。。。

可能是我很累了。。。

report还有很多。。。

真的很需要人的关心。。。

可能你只是做回你该做的事情。。。

但是我还是很感动。。。

真的谢谢你的那一瓶凉茶。。。

明天又是很忙的一天。。。

要去gombak。。

回来过后，又要做report，还有assignment。。。

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A bad day...

Rain so heavily this morning..

and i didn't know where is my umbrella until i went to D007...

Damn moody today, not just because of raining...

as i enter the class, saw him..damn! so angry when i was thinking of what happen yesterday

he did it like i never did my work...

yeah now everyone thought i didn't do my part and all was done by him..damn...

i did ask him what should i do...he say i don't have to do anything..

and he end up did everything by his own like i didn't do anything!!!

go and let others fuck your ass dude!

of course i'm not emo-ing for only this...but also for the same old reason...

but what can i do besides waiting?

went to bilik siswa yesterday to look for what i have lost and i end up found nothing..

i wonder if i could find it again one day...

i hope i will but it seems like i won't..

and now only i notice that i can't let go yet...

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PKB ends..

PKB ended and i miss all the workshops and stuff...

However, right now i'm facing one big problem...THESIS!!!

It's like i have to meet my supervisor soon for the poster stuff but what i have now is just the raw data!!!
I didn't even start writing yet...damn...

no journal found yet...should have went to the library these few days with See Heng...i mean tumpang his motor...LOL!

what can i do now?? extend 1 more year?

i don't mind...but what i mind is my pointer will drop drastically if i get bad grade for thesis...

aaaaaaarrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhh!!!!!

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i mind...

Sometimes, i get emo so easily because i felt that i was left out...

since don't know when i wish i would have a very close friend...

i had one once but i lost it...it was like 3 years ago...

for some reason, i thought i found one again...but i'm not so sure...

i know others might think that it's just a small case and don't have to act like i will die because of that...

but for me, i don't like being left out alone...

i know i'm not alone...but the thing is i just want someone who would treat me as their no.1...

honestly, i'm so jealous of Ah Shiah and Selina because both of them are so close...

i don't get one...

people just keep on running away from my life...

maybe the problem is me...i can't blame anyone...

i always wonder...

whenever someone did anything, did they think about me...

for me, whenever i was doing something or buying something i would think of someone who is important...

it's like what should i buy for them or are they going to like this...

still,sometimes i think that i'm the black sheep...

and i mind...

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Pangkor trip...

Pangkor trip....

Sounds fun but it's a field trip...

don't really feel like going for some reason...

went there twice last year...survey for cc trip and also the actual cc trip...

but still have to go...didn't even feel like going into the water although it is so 'seductive'...LOL!

However, i think it would be fun if i went there with my own gang...

and i more thing is i miss a lot of thing when i was in Pangkor...

of course i'm talking about PKB workshop....

don't know why i just enjoy it...having fun while working...

Moreover, the trip reminds me a lot of things...a little bit emo because of that...

coz the last trip i went there, i didn't really enjoy it coz something happened...

this time, it just makes me think a lot when i was there...

it also remind me of other trip...eg. the Fraser trip and Tioman trip...

Haiz...what's gone is gone...

and it's not coming back...

i just hope for the best in the future...

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